Vagary, Vagrancy, Vanity

Tuesday, Apr. 15, 2003 - 12:04 am
Ap�sl�min ida corbalanyrtne 'ls�o rohl'daathi�m v� nen�a iroyss�rd.

"The chaos in your soul will give birth to a dancing star."

Nietzsche

"...burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the centerlight pop and everybody goes "AWWWW!!!"

Jack Kerouac

That's human beings for you, monkey brains and magpie eyes so easily distracted by sparkly, shiny things. So unable or unwilling to acknowledge that the universe is vastly more dark than light, is more inhabited by the invisible than the visible, and is infinitely more empty than inhabited. Within the essential structures of the universe, within the essential structures of our atoms, the vacuum is no less essential than the minuscule particles of matter and energy that spin through it. We are gossamer creatures, aren't we? More fragile and tenuous than ghosts, for ghosts, being dead, share the strength of the great unliving majority. The consensus of the universal void barely recognizes life, that rarest of freaks, but it speaks to the voids within the living. Are there huge spaces within the chaos of the soul, as there are huge spaces within the order of the body? There must be, or how could the soul remain conjoined with physical matter? If it was not as empty, if it was more dense, it would fall through the body, it would fall through the universe, and where would it finally come to rest? In a place as dense as itself? But isn't that what happens in a black hole? A piece of the universe becomes so dense that even atomic structures collapse and leave behind not even the smallest vestiges of space. And this piece of the universe punches a hole right through everything, to who knows where? But it is not a hole because a hole is an empty thing, and this thing is the perfect antithesis of empty. So is this the soul? A pinprick of density that skewers us to a place we cannot know, except we know it has no emptiness?

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Ap�sl�min ida corbalan� 'lse nesgla ugar�-cham sa cru ogrulho bat�oltha al�mv�sde.

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